Warm weather in October makes me sad.
It occurs to me that I haven’t written in a while. I really haven’t much to write about. I’m wresting with the decision of whether or not to apply to graduate school, and if so - where? And additionally, I have to consider taking the GRE and figuring out how to balance studying to it with studying for my classes. I am taking Biology this semester, my last semester. I put it off for all this time and now it’s just… plaguing me. I’m also re-taking my required math course.
I lack the talent for these disciplines. It’s not a lack of understanding when it comes to math… I do understand the material and I actually somewhat enjoy it… but once that test is in front me, something goes wrong. I haven’t gotten the second test back yet. I am dreading it.
It really bothers me that I begin every sentence with “I.” How does one rectify that?
To be honest, there is a lot that I could write about. So much of it revolves around my own uncertainty, though… I do not know how to approach it in any form.
The first decision I need to make is whether or not I want to participate in the graduation ceremony. The UAH “Grad Finale” is going on today and tomorrow. It’s where students can order announcements, buy robes, and find out other information about it all… I don’t know if I can handle going today. I may well go tomorrow morning.
I recently re-discovered one of my favorite storybooks from my childhood. It’s called Miss Rumphius. The name of the author/illustrator escapes me now, but it’s really a lovely story. It’s about following your dreams and making the world a more beautiful place to be.
The world does not feel like a beautiful place today. It’s too warm! Also, despite the fact that I have a tendency to stay up into the wee hours of the night, I am most definitely a morning person. By this time of day (right around noon), the day begins to feel so stale and makes me not want to participate in it any longer. Everything is so fresh in the morning, even on the cloudiest of days. At least, I think so.
October 9th, 2007 at 3:06 pm
I thought about not going to graduation, but ended up doing it because my friends and family really wanted me to go. Now I’m grateful for that. The speaker was really awesome, and I was excited the whole time.
Going to the ceremony gives you a real sense of accomplishment, I think.
I would highly suggest taking the GRE, whether or not you are sure you want to go to grad school. It would at least get it out of the way, and if you don’t like your scores and end up not applying, you have a good footing for replacing them later (although how graduate schools take replacement scores into account varies widely). My suggestion: study the verbal. It’s a bitch.
I’m not entirely sure what graduate school in history/english/etc. would really entail, but it might be worth a shot. If you’re not really sure you want to do it as your career, you could always apply to a masters program.
On a side note, I am the exact opposite for the morning. I wake up and hate the world. I need that twenty minute walk to school to gain perspective, so that I wont scowl and snap at people.